I'm done running away from you
I didn't know what else to do, what to do
In retrospect, in full ignorance
I gave my heart to fallible soldiers,
foolish soldiers
I cheated and was betrayed
in searing grief
I destroyed and was dismayed
I couldn't see your guiding hand
nor you love in this reprimand
I couldn't stand
With no way out
I entered the water
entered the fire
to feel no more
my last desire
and I rose above the clouds, happy to escape
the world was far far below,
though not far enough from my mistakes
again, he said to me, what you seek is not so cheap
take heart and try again
you've got work to do my friend
why couldn't I just cease to be?
why did the flesh again capture me?
now here again on the receiving end
I fight to feel and comprehend
why must I exist? why this painful consciousness?
But thru it all, I feel You call
You hold my hand
You understand, You understand
expert teacher, dear most friend
this time around You gave a gentle man
though my heart, full of grief, thru him, You do teach
inviting me to stay and love
accept Your kindness sent from above
Your voice is loud as I've asked,
give up your doubts
chant and dance
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