The Sound of My Surrender

Do you wanna hear me remember?

hear the sound of my surrender?

do you wanna know what I've to say,

or turn you back and walk away?

Do you wanna, do you wanna, do you want to hear me?

Do you wanna see me surrender

Hear the sound of my remember?

Wanna know if I'm okay,

hold my hand or walk away?

Do you wanna, do you wanna,

do you wanna hear me?

Do you wanna know if I'm at peace?

Yeah, cause I got my gun and my saber,

drink your blood, sink my teeth

when you, I remember

when you, I remember

Do you wanna, do you wanna,

do you wanna know what I remember?

Robed, insidious pretenders

with tilak on their foreheads

Infiltrated, desecrated, defiled

reviled, fucked the children and the innocent

They knew we were sent to serve God.

Black and red, and pyramid

bricks, pool house,

rope, in the water dead.

this is how I found her

if I told, I was next

They Infiltrated, desecrated, defiled reviled,

and tried to destroy Srila Prabhpada's ISKCON.

Fangs and wings, spiky tails

black and red reptiles

with tilak on their foreheads,

they tried to destroy Srila Prabhupada's ISKCON.

You wanna see me surrender?

Through your guts, stick my saber.

Shut up, and hear what I've got to say

and Maybe then, I'll feel okay.

Two, sent by two, in coffins, bound and gagged,

Lives forfeit, in sacrifice stabbed.

Bullet burst her baby's head,

hung from the ceiling, on us she bled.

How do I know if thing's real?

Close my eyes, trust what I feel.

The fear and anger, crush my chest

courage to heal, this is my test.

Pure and powerful,

full of life and beautiful

delicate, devoted

it was we, who were sent to serve God.

They smelled our purity and power

the fanged, tilaked, reptiles

fucked and defiled

they kept us down for a while

Do you wanna hear me remember?

hear the sound of my surrender?

Roar Lion, pure love light

this darkness, is our fight

Now integrated, infiltrated, interwoven, sickness

With blades of purity,

cleave the demon from the deva

this is our seva

cut the demon from the deva

I see the seed of sickness in their hearts

planted in my pain, it begins a start

sends a root to tap my soul

this is the demon's goal

to pollute the soul

But……I was never one of them.

I was sent here to serve God! To serve God!

They try to destroy Srila Prabhpada's ISKCON.

Through the fire, through the pain

went the metal of our blades

and those of us who're not dead

purified, to rise again

So you wanna hear me remember?

Insidious pretender.

know that a child sees through you

it was you, who abused you.

Violated, raped, and fucked again

used goods by the age of ten

pimped out by the guruji

and you wonder what's up with me?

Where do I go, when everything is real?

Close my eyes, try everything but to feel.

When fear and anger, crush my chest

courage to live, this is my test.

courage to live, this is my test.

So, I ask myself, do I want to remember?

Feel the force of my surrender?

Do I want to finally be okay?

or close my eyes, and run away?

Do you wanna hear me forgive you?

I'd do anything not to be you.

Even the stones will cry for you.

I'd do anything not to be you.

I'd do anything not to be you.

The love, the grace, the chance that was given you,

Srila Prabhupada personally initiated you.

You swore, you vowed, with your head you bowed,

but, clearly, your heart stayed closed.

you did not take, you did not take,

this, your mortal, tragic mistake.

even the stones will cry for you,

I'd do anything not to be you.

I'd do anything not to be you.

So, do you wanna hear me forgive you?

The scared, angry child that is you?

Know that I see through you,

Petty fool, petty fool,

petty fool, petty fool.

Don't you know, you could never touch me?

Don't you know! You could never touch me!

I was sent here to serve God, I was sent to serve God!

It was you who abused you, it was you who abused you.

Do you wanna hear me forgive you?

I'll not drink your poison, and seek revenge

I'll not give power to the pyramid.

I'll not close my heart in anger and fear

I'm a spirit soul! and I don't live here!

Jai Jaganatha! Jai Jaganatha!

Jai Jaganatha! Jai Jaganatha!

By His grace, I clearly see

I'm untouched, unhurt, uncut, happy!

I'm brighter than the sun! Freer than the wind!

The force of my love will make even iron bend!

Now, feel the force of my forgiveness

with the Lord as my witness

this rage, revenge, I pray to release

and beg for your deliverance.

I am God's child, and it is time to go home.

Come with me,

It's time to go home, it's time, it is time.

Jai Jaganatha! Jai Jaganatha!

Jai Jaganatha! Jai Jaganatha!

Jai Jaganatha! Jai Jaganatha!

Jai Jaganatha! Jai Jaganatha!